how's todaaayyyy??????

today was kinda amazing day ,,, why ??? There are some reasons ,

first of all, today i had a great time with my friends in galeria mall . There are kikak,bella,sredhut,tyas,ichak and vidi.Unfortunately nesya couldn't join with us because she had a meeting at school. I expected it would be better if nesya joined also.Well our purpose went to galeria was to relax of our school routines and got refresh our mind . We also sticked sredha around to look for a birthday present for his bf . Initially i though that it went boring because we just walked around to watch some stuff in the shops there.After we felt tired to walking walking and walking ,we decided to take a rest at the food court in the ground floor. We bought some snacks and beverages and the gossiping time starteeed  yeeahh ! :D .We was talking ,joking,laughing ,and the most interesting ones was....... we was playing truth and truth game !!The game went so fun and kinda nervous because we must told frank and straight when the people asked u something ,whatever the questions were. And you know what? questions the most was about the boy who you like and what was the reason you like him ,haha lol .It just felt funny and we just laughing during the game . Anyway time run so fast and we just realized that its already around 5 o'clock and we should got up from our leisure. Before we went home ,we accompanied sredha to look for a present for his bf and finally she bought a grey-red jacket for her sweetheart. And then...... weeeee rode our motorbikes to go homeeeee yeaaah rocks \m/

the second reason was... there was William and Kate royal wedding today !!!!!! :D I think the wedding was so amazing and incredible.Kate looked so beautiful and William looked so handsome with their dress .What a wonderful couple ! I also impressed with the wedding procession that used english culture . William and Kate were picked to Buckingham palace from westminster abbey by horse-drawn carriage and followed by cavalry ,Cool ! Even tought i just watched on TV but i could feel the euphoria there .At last but not least i just wanna say Congratulations William and Kate !! Have a new happily life and have a superfun honeymoon ! :D

The third reason is... tomorro there is no study activities in my school because tomorro we celebrate kartini's day !!! I was so glad to hear that because today i hadn't think about school stuffs or something like that . Overall ,today kinda amazing and memorable haha :')

Refleksi diri...

I start to wondering about the meaning of my life . Tiba-tiba di sore yang mendung ,hujan dan dingin ini aku mulai bertanya-tanya tentang apasih sebenernya arti hidupku yang sudah berjalan selama 16 tahun ini?? Rasanya tiba-tiba aku kepikiran hal itu .Aku bingung menjawab apakah hidupku selama ini bisa dibilang baik atau egak .I just realized kalo di hidupku selama 16 tahun ini aku lebih banyak melakukan hal-hal buruk daripada hal-hal baik .Banyak banget hati orang-orang yang tersakiti gara-gara aku terutama my mom and my dad .Banyak banget hal-hal buruk yang aku lakuin yang menurut aku membuat mereka menyesal mempunyai anak seperti aku . Berratus-ratus kali atau bahkan beribu-ribu kali  aku membantah apa yang mereka suruh .Membuat mereka kecewa ,membuat mereka sedih . 

Bukan hanya itu ,aku merasa aku telah melewatkan banyak waktuku untuk hal-hal yang sia-sia dan tidak berguna .Waktu yang seharusnya aku manfaatkan dengan baik untuk membuat hidupku lebih baik dan membuat orang-orang disekitarku bangga sudah banyak kulewatkan . Banyak amanah dan tugas yang sudah menjadi kewajibanku tidak aku jalankan .Menganggap remeh dan tidak peduli dengan hal-hal yang penting bagi orang banyak . Banyak sekali hari-hari yang aku lewati tanpa makna ,serasa aku tidak pernah melewati hari itu . Sering sekali aku tidak bersyukur dengan apa yang aku punya ,selalu merasa kurang dan kurang .Kadang aku lupa dengan Tuhan yang telah memberiku nikmat dan rahmatnya yang seringkali aku tidak menyadari itu dan tidak mensyukurinya . Banyak sekali orang-orang yang sudah aku buat kecewa karena ulahku ,karena tingkahku yang kelewat batas.Banyak sekali kesempatan yang aku lewatkan untuk membuat papa mamaku tersenyum . Aku menyesal .Aku menyadari banyak sekali hal-hal yang perlu kuperbaiki .Aku ingin hidupku lebih bermakna dan berguna bagi banyak orang .Aku ingin selalu membahagiakan mama papaku yang begitu kusayangi.Aku tidak ingin melihat hidupku gelap seperti langit sore ini.Aku ingin berubah ,aku ingin menjadi orang yang lebih baik .Aku ingin membuat setiap hari yang aku lewati bermakna dan mulia dimata Tuhan .Aku ingin melihat setiap hari mama  dan papaku tersenyum bahagia karenaku .Aku ingin berubah .SUNGGUH aku ingin berubah .Aku yakin aku pasti bisa berubah .Ya Allah semoga apa yang aku katakan sekarang ini bukan hanya omongan belaka tapi benar-benar bisa terwujud .Semoga segala halangan dan rintangan tidak membuatku berhenti dan menyerah di tengah jalan.Semoga.......

what to do?

well now i'm in physic exam ,but u know what ? I can't do whole of the questions and i don't know what should i do . i know that's my bad because i didn't study last night . i wanna confess that i'm so lazy to study .my hope and wish for now is ......i just want to raise up from this dark hole ,from my laziness . i wanna back to my elementary school's period when i was so diligent to study and study . I don't want to regret in the last.now i still have so many times to change.i know its hard for me to change but I WILL TRY . I know its never too late to change.yeaaah rocks \m/

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I was secretly pleased with your presence even if only briefly, even though you're with others.Well , I often think about you even though I know you did not think of me and did not care at all. but let it be, love is no need to have :'>

sweet memory :)

well i wanna tell a short story about my friends from melbourne ,australia that came to my school on an exchange student program.Her name is Erin alison mei-ying smart .So long right ?but you can call her erin for short.She came to my school SMA Negeri 1 Yogyakarta about 3 months ago ,for exactly at the end of december until the early of january.She stayed in Yogyakarta,Indonesia for 6 weeks and stayed at my friend's house named rizka islami .Rizka islami is my classmate and because of that reason erin was placed in our class, X5 :) .First time i saw her i felt like amazed because she is really tall and has superwhite skin .At first sight i thought that she was a chinnese .And actually she has chinnese blood from her mom .Her mom was from singapore and her dad was from australia ,cool right ? At my first met with her , we had a nice conversation.We talked about our hobbies,her school ,her family ,her activities in australia ,and many interesting more .well  Her hobby are shopping, travelling,and swimming .She told that she have been going abroad for many times .She have visited China,Singapore,Thailand,Malaysia ,and what more ? i just can't remember it :p .That's supercool ,i'm envy haha.She thought that the most interesting place she have visited was China .Do u know why she chose china? anyway because in China there are a lot of shopping places so she could go shopping whenever she wants lol .She really loves shopping .She told that she go shopping with her friends in Australia for about twice a week .WOW lol . We also talked about our school .Her school name is Avilla College that situated in melbourne australia.She told that her school is bigger than my school and the students are fewer than the students in my school . In Australia school starts on 9 a.m and over in 3 p.m .aaaaaaa i just wanna like that ! it will be fun if Indonesia  apply that haha .There are 8 subjects (only) that they learned .And you know what? more higher your grade , the subject that you taken will be fewer .The other nice ones is you feel free to choose the subjects just depend on your wants. That's superfun !

Erin join drama in her school ,just like me :) .She also join balley there ,awesome :) .Everything that she told me that time just made me more curious to know more about her personality ,about her school and about her country . umm, i asked her what was she think about indonesia ,especially yogyakarta .Because at that time she just briefly in Yogyakarta,she told that Yogyakarta was so busy if compared with melbourne . yeaah , it's might be true, but at that time i also thought just like " have u ever seen Jakarta? Jakarta is more more more more busy than Yogyakarta lol. She told that the atmosphere in Australia was uncertain ,sometimes the athmosphere at daylight was so hot and dry but at night was freezing cold.

We also talked about our family .She has a little brother .Just a moment after heard that i felt so excited ,do you know why ? i really excited when i seeing foreigner guys or in indonesia you call it BULE .i just said to my self "what?!! she has a brother ? i wanna asked her to introduce me to his brother ! " pretty weird right ? lol . And actually her brother was a ten-year-old brother .hahah

So many things we talked about and i just can't remember all of it :p

Well , the first time she came in my class ,she looked like bored .but as the days passed she looked happy and enjoyed the time nicely with the students in my school .She said that she started to loves my school ,yogyakarta,and indonesia .She told that there are many things in Indonesia that she couldn't found in her country. i really glad to heard that :) .

Do you know that she also has a romance story in my school ? haha well i will tell you the story .Initially ,she like a boy in my class named **ki ,she told that **ki was so hot and sexy haha .but in the long run ,erin like the other guy named gessa . She was very excited and happy when she saw gessa passing by.One day ,we both saw gessa in the class was playing cards with his friends .i asked her to meet him direcly and let her knew him better .She was agree but she asked me to accompany her .haha .And at last she managed to get acquainted with him and erin got gessa number .They both was texting and erin looked so happy about that. I'm happy too if erin happy hahah.

Anyway time run so faaaast and i just realized that erin will go back to her country .i'm so sad to heard that .Me,erin ,and some of the other friends went to the ambarukmo plaza 3 days before she left jogja.We had so much fun in amplaz . Gessa also joined with us and of course he had so much fun and pleasure with erin .But gessa just joined us for a short time because he has something to do . We had so much talked in tamansari foodcourt and we took some photos there. Me and my friends also gave her a bag that we bought in malioboro as a souvenir for her. And i gave her some silver stuffs from my silver shop. We also accompanied erin to looking for a gift that would be gaven to gessa .Because erin knew that gessa like red color ,erin bought a red jacket for gessa .Erin gave the jacket to gessa at the last day she in my school .oh so so :( . At that last day ,Erin said that she didn't wanna goes home ,she wanna stayed longer in indonesia .she had fell in love with Indonesia .She told me that Indonesia have a huge of tasty food and some of indonesian men are handsome haha . At that day we said goodbye and our tears just fell down .Erin said that she always crying over when she say goodbye .We hug each other and said that we will miss each other .And now i just  miss u erin :)

There are some pictures taken :)

marini ,erin ,me

if you dream it you can do it !

well , if someone ask me what i want to be,  i will answer that i want to be a.... jengjengjeng ...diplomat or ambassador yeaah ! actually i used to felt confused when somebody asked me like that .But now i'm not feel confused anymore and i know what i really want to be. why i choose diplomat or ambassasor? well you know that my biggest passion is going abroad ,going abroad and going abroad. and if i become a diplomat or an ambassador i definitely could go abroad as my job ought to be . I think that job would be supercool and interesting because you bring the name of your country , so you will do the best at work just for your country .Well nobody knows that my ambition will change or not ,but for now i just really want to be like i told above .i believe "if you dream it you can do it " yeaah ,i love that's qoute :)

think twice before acting :'>

Ngomong-ngomong soal jejaring sosial ,pasti udah ngetrend banget tu dikalangan anak-anak remaja masa kini.Apalagi facebook dan twitter yang lagi "in" banget nih terutama di kalangan anak-anak ABG seperti gueh.Dengan bermunculannya berbagai jejaring sosial itu tentu saja bikin kita makin gampang untuk berkomunikasi dengan orang lain dan juga update tentang kegiatan orang lain yang bisa dilihat melalui status facebook,tweet dan lain sejenisnya.Dengan kemudahan itu banyak juga orang yang menyalahgunakannya untuk hal-hal yang tidak semestinya dipublikasikan kepada khalayak .Tau sendirikan kalo melalui jejaring sosial semuanya itu bisa gampang dan cepet banget kesebar.Salah satu contohnya tu seperti temen aku yang satu itu .Dia adalah tipe orang yang mengungkapkan segala kegiatan hidupnya,perasaannya,dan segala sesuatu tentang kehidupannya melalui jejaring sosial facebook dan twitter.Semuanya dia ungkapin di jejaring sosial baik itu yang baik maupun yang buruk.Sampai-sampai banyak hal-hal yang dia ungkapkan di jejaring sosial itu menimbulkan kontroversi dan masalah yang melibatkan berbagai kalangan dan merugikan banyak orang .Sebenarnya apasih manfaat melakukan hal-hal yang seperti itu ? Kalo menurut aku sih itu bener-bener gada gunanya dan cuma bikin hidup kamu susah doang .Harusnya kita sebagai makhluk Tuhan yang diberi akal pikiran harus berpikir dua kali dulu sebelum bertindak .Kita harus memikirkan baik buruknya hal yang mau kita lakukan itu dan jangan sampai kita menyesal pada akhirnya .Betul tidak ? :D

sucks day :'(

Sabtu malang sabtu kelabu for me ,gimana enggak ,today i had a really jerks accident and let me down so bad :( .Actually kejadiannya tu mungkin bisa dibilang gak penting ato apalah ,but for me it's really make me sad . Berawal dari temen deket aku yang ngambil my secret book in my laci meja waktu aku keluar kelas .Dia baca page belakang buku aku itu yang isinya secret bangeeeeeet. Mungkin emang aku yang salah ngapain bawa buku yang isinya tentang rahasia pribadi ,tapi ya gimana ,kan aku udh bilang kalo jangan dibaca ,aku percaya dia gabakal mbaca ,eh tapi ternyata dia baca and it's let me so down :( .yang kedua waktu aku mau masuk kelas sehabis istirahat,kelasnya ternyata sengaja dikunci garagara temenku yang satunya lagi mau mbaca bukuku itu dengan bebas tanpa ada halangan dari aku .and setelah pintunya berhasil kebuka ,aku liat kalo temenku itu lagi mbaca bukuku itu.otomatiskan aku ngambek marah sebel dan alhasil mbolos dua jam pelajaran terakhir  :(. Ya emang kalian itu temen deketku ,temen yang baik banget .Temen yang bisa dijadiin tempat cerita yang enak ,bisa dijadiin temen maen yang asik, pokoknya you are everything deh .Tapi aku juga butuh privacy .Bukan berarti kalo aku gak ngasih tau sesuatu sama kalian itu menandakan kalo aku gak percaya sama kalian atau gimana. aku cuma butuh privacy .Aku bakal ceritain semua tentang apa yang aku pikir perlu untuk aku ceritain ,tapi aku gak akan cerita yang menurut aku gak perlu buat aku ceritain dan menurut aku itu privacy buat aku . but anyway it's no use to crying over spilt milk . gada gunanya marah sama kalian atau sebel sama kalian .i just tell about my feeling now .i just wanna say that i need a privacy and you should know it friends .And do u know what?i really love u friends :'> ,you are my everything :')

yes i can :)

Going abroad is one of my biggest passion in my life ,go to europe or US is the most. My ambition to go abroad just popped up in my mind when i saw my friend's sister who now in US for student exchange.I just wanna be like her , share the cultures of indonesia ,learn about the cultures there ,learn about differences , learn every positive things that could be share when come back in Indonesia , and many things that can colouring my life and make my life more beautiful .Do u know what? i would be so glad and excited when i see foreigner who come to Indonesia. They are so unique and i always wanna know about their and i wanna know about special things that they have which i couldn't found out in my country. Meet new friends especially from the other country is a pleasure for me .And it be one of my reasons to go abroad.

Well ,there are some reasons why i really wanna go abroad, mainly with the way of exchange student .First , i wanna get new experience in my life  , i wanna see the world with my own eyes ,not only from tv ,internet or book . i wanna share and let world know about indonesia ,world should know and have to know about indonesia because indonesia has a lot of special things that completely amazing from the wealth of cultures,various races, a huge of tasty foods, beautiful nature , friendly people ,and much more that should be knew by world .

i wanna have new friends from the other country and learn about them .And absolutely i really wanna make my parents proud of me .i wanna they have a big smile because of see their daughter could go abroad for a good mission . oh my gosh i really wanna go abroad .it would be so overwhelming if i can be a junior ambassador of indonesia . Since i have that desire to go abroad i started to learn more about indonesia , i started to learn more about cultures in indonesia ,i try to make my insight wider and wider ,and i do everything to support my desire to go abroad . i promise i will do everything to reach and make that dream come true .i will strive to make it real and actual .i definitely can make it happen while i'm trying to .ganbatte for me ! :'D

have u ever failed?

GAGAL .Mungkin semua orang pernah mengalami hal itu .Begitu juga dengan saya .Saya pernah berkali-kali gagal ,tapi ada satu kegagalan yang masih saya ingat .Apakah itu? Itu adalah ketika saya gagal menjadi danton GVT 2011 .Waktu itu saya benar-benar kecewa marah sebel semuanya campur jadi satu .Keinginan yang sudah sejak lama ada ,keinginan yang menurut saya bakalan benar-benar terwujud ,keinginan yang benar-benar diniati tetapi ternyata belum menjadi kenyataan .Waktu pertama kali saya melihat pengumuman itu rasanya semangat saya benar-benar ilang , saya nangissss saya hancur .Bahkan saya sempet tanya ke diri saya sendiri ' apa pengumuman ini salah ya? apa mbak dan masnya salah nilai atau gimana?' .Waktu itu saya bener-bener gak terima sama hasilnya .Berhari-hari saya mikirin itu .Semua kegiatan saya bubrah karena gak fokus .Waktu itu saya selalu mikir apasih yang salah sama aku sampe aku gak ketrima ?Aku kurang apa? Berhari-hari saya tanya itu kediri saya sendiri.Saya penasaran kenapa sih saya gak lolos .Wawancara tahap 1 2 3 saya lewatin dengan lancar sampe pengumumannya menyatakan kalo saya gak lolos .Dari 8 orang ,yang gak lolos ada 2 orang dan salah satu dari dua orang itu adalah saya .Gimana gak kecewaaaa.Tapi setelah beberapa hari dari pengumuman itu saya akhirnya bisa terima semua itu .Saya jadi tahu kalau kegagalan yang saya alami itu semua pemberian dari Allah bahwa saya harus lebih berusaha lagi jika ingin mendapatkan sesuatu yang saya inginkan .Allah memberi saya kegagalan itu karena saya disuruh untuk mempersiapkan sebuah kesuksesan di depan sana .Allah tahu kalau akan ada yang lebih berharga dan terbaik buat saya dengan tidak terpilih menjadi danton gvt itu .Saya juga sadar kalau saya itu tidak gagal karena saya masih mau berusaha untuk menjadi yang lebih baik .Semua pasti ada hikmahnya and i believe that .Yaah memang semuanya itu tergantung diri kamu mewujudkan keinginan kamu itu dan seberapa besar kamu berusaha untuk mendapatkan itu .So i will keep spirit and i will always strive to realize my desire :')

love my life now :')

what i have done in senior high school? there are so many things that i have done and i can't mention it one by one. Romance , friendship ,hostility ,competition , and many moreeeeeeeeeee . Honestly, i got so many special things in senior high school ,SMA NEGERI 1 Yogyakarta that i've never got it in JHS . SHS is really different if compared with JHS and i love the differences . Maybe the people say that SHS is the most wonderful time is true because i can feel it now .Got new experiences ,from the sweetest experience till the sucks and shameful ones.Got  new amazing friends ,met the boy like you ,met annoying teacher,met a really sucks girl , and so many things that i can't mention all of that. ohh i love my school ,i love my love,and i love my life :')